Hind's Feet on High Places
Jerry and I leave at 5 AM tomorrow for Raleigh, NC, where we will rent a car, drive down to Myrtle Beach for the night and then up the coast to Camp LeJeune, NC for a job interview. Then we'll find our hotel, Mariott in Jacksonville and get settled in and hopefully see some of the town before dark thirty. I'll spend the day at job interviw #2. Not sure if I'll be back with the practice on Wed or just checking out the town. Home on Thursday the 2nd.
Very emotional time as I process what all this means not only for me but our entire extended family dynamic. Excited to see what lies ahead, but ambivlent about all the unknowns. This is what I've been hoping, waiting and praying for so is a definite "high place" in my life. ANd yet, as it is here, I find myself wondering if I have the courage to step into it, embrace it. I have shed so many tears over the idea of leaving the kids and grandkids behind to accept what God has next for me. And to try to explain to my daughter my reasons why this is best, even when I KNOW it hurts them as it did me when my folks moved away. I can't find the right words to express what's in my heart. This is something that I have to do to be who I am. I must go where God leads me. I want to go. I just DON'T want to be without those precious precious kids that are so much a part of me. It will be like ripping open a wound every time I think of them and how I can't be with them. But I know that God is calling me to more. I have to entrust to Him my children and grandchildren. I hope and pray this separation season isn't for long, but not my will, but your, be done.
Habakkuk 3:19
The sovereign Lord is my strength
he makes my feet like the feet of a deer,
he enables me to go on the heights.
Very emotional time as I process what all this means not only for me but our entire extended family dynamic. Excited to see what lies ahead, but ambivlent about all the unknowns. This is what I've been hoping, waiting and praying for so is a definite "high place" in my life. ANd yet, as it is here, I find myself wondering if I have the courage to step into it, embrace it. I have shed so many tears over the idea of leaving the kids and grandkids behind to accept what God has next for me. And to try to explain to my daughter my reasons why this is best, even when I KNOW it hurts them as it did me when my folks moved away. I can't find the right words to express what's in my heart. This is something that I have to do to be who I am. I must go where God leads me. I want to go. I just DON'T want to be without those precious precious kids that are so much a part of me. It will be like ripping open a wound every time I think of them and how I can't be with them. But I know that God is calling me to more. I have to entrust to Him my children and grandchildren. I hope and pray this separation season isn't for long, but not my will, but your, be done.
Habakkuk 3:19
The sovereign Lord is my strength
he makes my feet like the feet of a deer,
he enables me to go on the heights.
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