Midwife Musings
1. My precious family - a good man who loves me, 2 beautiful daughters, 1 kind and tender son in law, the funnest, cutest, smartest grandson ever. Not to mention both parents still living and loving each other after 50 years. A mother in law who has totally loved me as her own daughter for the last 26 years. Her health and vitality to be an active GGMa to Ashton and a loving, involved Gram to my daughters. Her husband who gives generously of his time to help us with our household projects. A brother who has recently "come to Jesus" is a life changing way, a sister who has tried to re-connect with me in this past year. All of my "kids" are saved and I know I'll get to spend eternity with them.
2. Heartland Midwifery, LLC
He gave me a fun, fulfilling job for the last 17 months that has been my best job ever - owning my own homebirth practice. I've loved being able to spend time with my "moms" and get to know them as women and mothers. I've loved being invited to share in a most sacred event as the births of their children - some of them I'm on #4 with! I've loved knowing that they will always share a special place in my heart and vice versa. And I've loved working out of my home "office" (aka Ashton's bedroom) with my bullitin board full of babies I have helped be born. I've loved having the time to commit 2 days/week to care for and nurture Ashton.
3. The opportunity to go on a medical outreach to Maritania, Africa in January.
I've always wanted to do this and I just know that God has big plans for this trip. He called me to do it and he has provided the financial resources to go. I know that it is going to change me in ways I need changed. And while I know it won't be "comfortable" I look forward to the growth.
4. I get to go out of town to be with all of my family over Christmas. No babies due this year!
5. Last but not least, I am thankful because I know God loves me and is working in my life. He has closed the door on my homebirth practice for now. While that is very sad in some ways, it is a relief as it has been exhausting fighting "the system". It have had to fight for my right to be a homebirth midwife, fight to get paid, and fight those who would like to see my practice shut down. I'm tired of the fight and won't miss that at all. I will miss homebirth dearly and will gladly answer the call to return to it, probably as a non nurse midwife, if I am called back. But for now, I am taking the closed door as an opportunity to do something else. I just don't know what yet. I know God knows, but he probably isn't telling till I return from Mauritania and "need" a job. I am glad he is in control!
Happy Thanksgiving.